Summer is technically at its half way point. I still have about 2 months left until school starts. As usual, my feelings are mixed.
Colin comes tomorrow, and by the time he leaves, it will be nearly August. Then, with the State Fair and Dino's, August is just about consumed! Suddenly, Augsem training, first meetins, Auggie Days, Classes!
I just about drove myself mad last night when I was trying to get to sleep; I couldn't stop thinking about all the things I am going to do this school year, and how I am going to fit them all into my schedule.
That is where it started. Once my parents got home from the art show in Brainerd yesterday, I began plotting my schedule to consume the last few pages in my journal.
I constructed a routine for Monday through Friday, from which I concluded: If I work dutifully and productively EVERY week day, I will have 33 hours of study time. This is 7 hours short of the recommended 40 (2 hours of study for each hour of class). My schedule leaves out my Augsem, exercise, brass chamber, and history club.
Last semester, I was very undisciplined. I did not go to bed at consistent hours, nor did I wake up at the same time every day. I did not use all my time for study and organization, and it showed. On these issues, I pondered.
A ridiculous plan that I got last night-that COULD work- involved an early early early morning work out session every Tuesday and Thursday before my 8am class. I would have to learn how to use the locker room...
Another goal that I decided upon was to stop spending points on POP. Even if I justify it as a reward. Pop is BAD for me. It will rot my teeth, and weaken my bones. Besides, I will need the points to get CAFFEINE between Biology and History.
I am going to pretend that I am Alanna of Trebond as a Squire in Tortall. She put in extra hours on both ends of the day, and that is how she became the kingdom's most skilled fencer, learned wrestling and knife fighting, and still managed to spend time with her friends. It was not easy for Alanna to become a knight, but she knew that going in, and she did not concern herself with the fickle goings-on of court.
I tell myself now, "I know I can do it!" However, I will have to remind myself of this when I am trying to find 7 extra hours out of the ether.
These obsessions are premature. I will put them aside for now and enjoy the rest of summer. Nevertheless, I am really excited for school to start.